It was always mummy

I hope that when my eldest are older they can reflect back and actually see that it was mummy!

It was mummy that went through gruelling pain to give birth to them.
It was mummy that sat up every  night to feed them alone.
It was mummy who tried over and over again to try give them the perfect family set up of a mum And dad at home, even though she got nothing back.
It was mummy that tried to force their dad for months to see them when he was asked to leave the family home.
It was mummy that helped them See their step sibling when they wasn’t given the option even though it cut mummys heart with a knife every time.
It was mummy that ensured they stayed in contact and see their fathers side of the family until I reached a point of its not my responsibility.

It was mummy that took them to play groups.
It was mummy that took them to school.
It was mummy that helped arrange play dates.
It was mummy that organised birthday parties.
It was mummy that cooked several Dinners each night so they had something they liked.

It was mummy that scrimped and saved every penny to be able to give them a nice home.
It was mummy that scrimped and saved to give them a means of transport.
It was mummy that scrimped and saved to give them days out and holidays.
It was mummy that always let herself go Without so they didn’t.
It was mummy walking around with holes in her leggings so they had nice new clothes.
It was mummy that scrimped and saved for every extra cost of school uniform even though asking several times for some support from The other parent, with a sugar coated no as a response every year.

It was mummy that washed their clothes.
It was mummy who chose them new clothes and shoes.
It was mummy that ensured they had good birthdays and Christmas.

It was mummy that enjoyed having them home and would never just decide oh I’m not having them this time.

It was mummy that sat up every night through nightmares or restlessness and anxiety.

It was mummy that went to every hospital appointment.
It was mummy that took An interest when there was an obvious health problem.
It was mummy that ensures the school give enough support for any SEN needs.
Its mummy that goes to every One plan meeting.
It was mummy that goes to every parents evening.
It is mummy that goes to every assembly.
It is mummy that goes to every sports day.
It is mummy that goes to every school fayre or plays taxi service for the school discos.
It is mummy that has never not been there on their birthday.

It was mummy who provided them with a home and a safe place.
It was mummy that didn’t keep introducing new partners and new step siblings to them and cause them anxiety.

It was mummy that made sure the freezer is full of ice lollies in the summer.
It was mummy who took them to see the film at the cinema they were so excited about.
It was mummy that filled the pool up a zillion times throughout summer.
It was mummy that caught every spider that crept in the house, even though scared herself.
It was mummy that ensured they were bathed and with brushed hair and teeth.
It was mummy that took them for hair cuts and health check ups.

It was mummy that laid awake at night wondering if she had done enough.
It was mummy that laid there at night wishing she hadn’t had to be bad cop and told them off.
It was mummy that laid there at night and wondered if they loved me back.
It was mummy that laid there at night and was planning things for months in advance.
It was mummy that cried at night wishing she had some emotional support.
It was mummy that laid there at night thinking she has no social or romantic life because her life is solely her children.
It is mummy that laid there at night feeling guilty she was so tired after a 13 hour shift on the ward that she didn’t play that evening.
It was mummy that struggled to find childcare whilst she worked and had to put other people out because the other parent was absent.

It was mummy who tried to get a career whilst being a full time mum and show them that hard work pays off, and they shouldn’t steal Or cheat there way through life.

It was mummy that showed them never to Give up, you just change your path to The better path. Never stay where you are not welcomed.

It was mummy that told you everyday that I LOVE YOU and IM PROUD OF YOU.

Sometimes parenting isn’t 50/50 as much as people would like to pretend or assume it is.  Sometimes it’s one parent busting a gut, and the other having 24 hours maximum a month to be the parent of the year and be the good cop.

I hope when my eldest two kids are older they look back and they see… IT WAS MUM, it was always mum.

♥ ♥ ♥

My three babies come before anything and anyone.